2009:

first half -
started off pretty well,
was doing okay with friends,
and was pretty happy,
but unfortunately my grades were taking a toll,
for the worst.
then, i was starting to feel the stress of the streaming.
i told myself to work hard,
but all to no avail,
cause i still lost a battle to my arch enemy,
the computer.
ended off with bad grades, and tears.

whenever yelaoshi announced the tops in class,
i sighed and wished i was one of them.

toward the end,
i realised that i had lost a friend.
many tears and countless diary entries later,
i told myself i had to let her go.
because, she does not treat me like her friend,
and i told myself that i can't be close to her anymore.
that our times as being close friends were gone.

even times in cca weren't very pleasant,
i even broke down, having sirs and ma'ams asking me,
if i was okay.
i told them i was stressed for studies,
but i think they knew it wasn't studies.
but they were caring, and i really thank them (:

holidays were here,
and i started to read up more,
and be more concerned for studies,
after all, my goal was to get in to 3H '2010.


second half -
i was feeling better,
i had found better friends and i was feeling happier.
i worked hard for studies,
putting everything else in second place.
and finally, i scored very well for the common tests,
i felt so so so happy,
i scored many many A1s, (except my chinese ); )
and felt proud of myself,
after all, i defeated my enemy.

nearing exam time,
i cut myself away from computer,
and dedicated my time to studying,
and really focused on my goal.
my eyes could only see the finish line,
which i worked hard for.

finally, the end of year exams were near.
i gathered all my notes,
and soon me and my study partner xinting were off to--
the library.
thats right.
everyday right after exams,
and also the week before,
we would eat lunch (jia fan of course)
and then put sweets and earpiece into our pockets,
and carried our books and notes to the library.

we would ask each other questions,
and really learn a lot from each other.
sometimes, we were the only ones there,
and we woud study right until 5 when the librarian,
had to tell us to leave,
as the library was closing soon.

and after each exam,
we would tell each other how hard it was,
and say, "aiyah die liao lah"
"i think cannot get A already ): "
haha, but we laughed and prayed,
for good results to come.

finally results were due to be back.
i was pleasantly surprised,
when ms tan mui mui called me up,
because i scored well for mathematics.
it made my day, and i felt glad,
that my days of bad results were finally over.
and when mrs tan called my name,
to say that i got a distinction for science for newsouthwales,
i was shocked, (you can ask xinting), but i was happy.

although i still had a little bit of friends' troubles,
and still teared once in a few days,
my family were encouraging,
and my real friends really supported me.

cca got better for me,
and i passed the drill test and campcraft test,
got loads of badges,
and i felt proud of NPCC.

also,
i made it into SLC. which i was really hoping for.
finally i can make a difference to people's lives,
and i'm glad my new friend jiayi made it in too!

thus, the year has finally ended.
and i think that although this year was not a good one for me,
i look forward to next year,
and i hope for the best!


now, i would like to thank a few people,
for making 2009 bearable.

Bernice! ((:

Thanks so much for being my bestest best friend.
and even though we are apart,
but thank you for supporting me,
for everything i do,
and sharing your secrets,
and i'm always glad to entrust my secrets to you.
thank you bestie!
you'll always be my bestest best friend!

Charmaine! (:

Thanks for writing that super long post,
and all your care for me.
you were so nice,
to dedicate that post to me,
and it touched me!
i really appreciate it,
and i hope to know you better in the coming year!
you are a really kind and nice person,
thank you for being my friend!

Xinting! (:

hey there big mouth #01!
thank you for being a really good friend to me,
you are a great person and i'm so happy,
to have such a good friend!
you cheer me up all the time,
and we've been through a lot together!
thanks for all the good times,
and i know we will have more in the years to come!
your random notes and little cards,
never fail to make me feel happy!
thank you so much, for being there,
when nobody else was.

Jiayi! (:
(i know you like rainbows!)

i'm so glad to have met you,
because i have really found someone,
who understands my views and opinions,
and won't think bad of me,
no matter what i say.
you are a really sweet girl,
and i think you and me are fated to be good friends!
we think so much alike,
we're practically twins!
i'm also glad to have you as a future classmate,
because i know that our friendship will grow,
and last of all,
thanks for all the chats and smses,
you really make me feel special and brighten up my day!

Yi luan! (:

you are a really kind and caring friend!
you always cheer me up when i'm down,
and your long smses really motivated me,
and made me really cheered up!
thank you so much,
for always believing in me,
and lending me your listening ear,
whenever i felt sad.
thanks!

& to the rest of my good friends out there:

i also want to thank all of you for being friends with me,
and really, i would just liek to say:
i would not have survived 2009 without all of you,
and you guys are awesome!
special thanks to:

2D 2009, NP Sec 2 Squad,

All my friends at my church, St. Ignatius Catholic Church,

& My family!


goodbye 2009!

-natalieang: thanks to you too, my special someone.