freak you.
sian.
for those of you know whats going on,
thanks for all the encouragement.
i'm so stressed. but i'll try and handle.
can't believe i _____ today.
it seems a long time since i did that,
and the last time was also because of stress.
whats wrong with me.
other people can handle it,
but why can't i.
things have no turned out well these days,
and i'm trying my best to salvage whats left of my life,
but why is it i just can't. everytime i feel cheered up,
something will happen to make me stressed and angry and sad,
and irritated, and sian again.
haix, i'm just so useless you know.
useless. seriously.
i'm the most useless person ever.
don't pity me please,
and don't think i'm just a bitch can.
i'm so sorry people,
i have to say it, I'M USELESS.
such a useless stupid person like me shouldn't even exist lor.
sian, its happening again. i'm ______ again.
wth. haix.
these few days made me really realise what a useless person i am,
wu yao ke jiu.
and all the trust was gone,
just like the blowing of dust off an old book,
one blow, andits gone.
now i know better.
and i know i can't trust people too easily,
because, the fact is,
some people will betray that trust,
and hurt you in ways you never would have thought possible.
thats what happened.
it will happen to everyone i'm sure,
but being the useless person i am,
i couldn't handle it.
just _____ it out,
but thanks for all the concern,
but just don't get your hopes up on me,
its not worth it.
special thanks to jie, and boksiong sir,
your advice was awesome,
and it cheered me up,
even a useless person can appreciate the advice given.
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won't be replying tags today.
no mood lah.
another time bah.
but don't bother tagging this useless person here.
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going to be away for a long long long time.
due to exams.
so yeah,
this useless idiot needs to buck up,
so she doesn't dissapoint herself,
and everyone else.
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happy birthday IMAN.
may you be happy forever,
and jia you for O lvl kay.
!
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congrats to everyone who got GOLDS,
and GOLD WITH HONOURS.
jiayou people,
at least you aren't as useless as me kay.
so must jiayou,
cause unlike me,
you can do it!
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okay.
that is all.
my mood has been totally wrecked,
all because of the past few days,
and stress.
and .... ,
so yeah, bye. i'm going off le.
-natalieang, haix, useless thing. (whats more, didn't get into GOH cause too short -.-)

you, why?
i trusted you.
but why.
things will never
be the same,
the hurt is done.
its done, so whatever happens,
i'll still remember what happened.
nothing will undo it.
i wish it would return,
but now i realise, it just can't.
you're not the same,
i'm not the same.
friends? haix, i don't even think its possible.
i can't do it again. let myself get hurt by trusting you,
because i only know,
i'll be more hurt.
just forget it then.
you already have them.
you don't need me.
you'll survive. i don't thunk i can pull myself to,
trust you again anyway.
so just go on,
go with them, i'll be fine,
i guess. i always knew that some friendships can't last.
but never in my life did i think that you,
would be the one person to make me realise that,
well its fine, i guess its not your fault.
its mine.
haix, you useless idiotic natalie, wake up lah.

tag replies ;O
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yiluan: haha, kay (:

jiansheng: LOL, okay, hope so lah, time a little short now, study also like barely enough time ;x

kah hwee: thanks auntie ;O HAHA.

bernice <33: eeyer, 4th place useless de leh. HAHA. thanks anyway (: sporty? me? hahah, no heats for my event tahts why i got in bah, lol. eh, double is totally impossible lah, LOL. anyway thanks sweetie for all the tags ♥ ;DD

jiansheng: okay, sure, i will de, thanks ;D kay lah, will try post more de ._. you also hor, you never post still talk so much! ;x

kah hwee: okay lah auntie, i will i will ;DD

tim: thanks kor (: i hope so.

kah hwee: oh, not that lah, i meant you told me cannot get double liao mah. nevermind bah, LOL, continue on green belt lor ._.

yiluan: eh, nothing lah ._. really, thanks anyway (: <3!

shiying: heh, i forgot your link lah ;x sry paiseh.

jiansheng: okay (: will try lah. HAHA, you're damn funny lah ;D

alex: o.o who are you? -.-" lame lah.

jiansheng: eh, relax lah, i don't even know this crazy person ._.

bernice: HAHA, i'm always yours ber ;D yeah, thats pretty sweet (: thanks. i have faith in you too bestie <3333
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summary of friday!
pe; ran two rounds,
tiring man, leg cramped a little.
volley-ed a bit with xinting until my wrists hurt,
then went to play some skipping rope,
i miss skipping lah! reminds me of primary school ;O
haha, and i realise not many people can skip backwards,
i can ;P haha, my maid taught me a long time ago (:
awesome ;D
skipping rocks!
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blah blah blah..
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F&N; quiz then practical
whoo, me and huee ru paired up,
since my practical partner ps-ed me ):
anyway, baked awesome pizza ;D
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NP; went to Police Heritage Centre
really nice (:
sang songs, enthu-ed all the way ;D
enjoyed the intro there and walking through the gallery,
esp the skull, LOL, chuan hong wants the skull to talk,
HAHA, kept asking me about the skull.
bus-ed back to school, enthu-ed again.
stayed for PT! ran another two rounds,
did all sorts of stuff (:
then pei-ed juniors to run more rounds,
and do circuit.
quite fun indeed :D
went home (:
mommy made me baked pasta,
yum yum :D
LOL.
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okay, off to study some more.
bye bye :D
natalieang is pretty cheer-ed up.

yo, LOL.
sorry leh, these few days quite busy,
tests and all.
studying pretty hard,
mid-years very important!
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LOL, today is IFD.
helped out with the pageant,
and had a lot of fun,
HAHA, crapping with samantha is damn fun ;D
and were playing and enjoying as well as helping.
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heh, i'm damn tired now.
taek quite tiring,
even though never really do anything ;X
LOL, i dunno what i'm talking lah.
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taek grading over le,
double is totally hopeless lah.
impossible lah, auntie told me le.
haha. i knew it lah.
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ahhh, damn sian.haix. just feel sian.
like, studying and all,dunno why also,
and then. yeah. or maybe i know the reason,
hell lah, i dunno what i'm saying.but i don't want to type it out.
okay forget it. ._.maybe so. haix, i dunno what to do.
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reply tags another time.
too sian and irritated and angry,
and i really dunno what to do
okay bye.
-natalieang is tired and super sian.

LOL, a bit MIA.
i'm back.
sorry, been really lazy these days :/
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taek-ed wednesday,
practice pattern,
yada,yada.
hone-ed,
nothing much that day.
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thursday, SPORTS DAY (:
fun fun fun.
though i got 4th for long jump ._.
siann, actually is third,
cause second and third is a tie.
but yeah, not enough medals,
so none for me.
yepp, will work hard for next year lah.
and maybe join more events.
HAHA, in primary school,
i would NEVER, NEVER join any events,
except long jump.
but even long jump has fierce selections,
especially for yellow house,
like 50 over people came for the selection,
;O and of course i never made it.
50 over people mah,
sure die de lah.
LOL. heh, plus, i'm like so lousy lah,
so yeah, die.
ahhaha.
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yesterday.
hmm, just stayed at home,
tuition,
til at night went to visit my grandma,
boring lah.
lol, very sian leh.
today also kinda sian.
gotta prepare for grading tmr,
somemore auntie pressure me to double -.-"
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tags,
jiansheng: ermm, nah. haha, okay, good (:

kah hwee: haha, no problem auntie.

tim: haha, congrats (: and thanks, i will.

bernice: HAHA, i meant that as a joke, no consellors in my school, hahha. yeah, yogurt is awesome (: esp the meiji one. aww thanks. <333

amanda: yeah sure.

pearlyn: yup, shall tag you more often bah ;D LOL.

tim: thanks.

jiansheng: yeah lah, the double thing very pressurising leh. ;x i got support hor. don't say i never hor. LOL.

bernice: HAHA, glad you like my blogsong bestie :D

jiansheng: LOL, the name of the song.

jiazhi: yo, thanks so much jiazhi, ILY (: haha, you very good at spamming lah. LOL. i not mei nu lah, you then hor. LOL. jiazhi so cute and nice :D

kah hwee: HAHA, auntie likes white horse too (:

jiansheng: haha, paiseh lah, lazy leh ;x okay, will try, must come back support me hor.

jiazhi: okay okay (: wo ai ni jiazhi :D LOL. spam good mah! haha ;x bye <3!

jiansheng: it means mei nu, but i'm so not one, jiazhi then mei nu lah! lol. kay lah, i posted le.

joanna: yeah, i guess ;x

cyl: yo yiluan (: thanks for the tag, ily <3!
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wah, really alot. ;x
next time i try not to MIA so long lah.
HAHA.
okay, i gtg le,
promise to update soon,
and my post will be more interesting? LOL.
okay buh-bye.
-natalieang is trying hard for double tmr! ._.

lazy day today.
just y'know,
wake up, do homework,
read, use comp.
BORING!!!!!
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tag replies:

jiansheng:LOL, nvm de lah, taekwondo only mah, you NP still the highest rank (: lol. kay abit random. thanks for the tag anyway.

bestie ♥: HAHA, i read the right leg thing on the net! ;x LOL. not my idea. heheh, funny! you are such a procrastinator lah! you won't get one without consulting me i'm sure :D ahha, at least i hope you'll consult me first ;o

VSM: no lah, is i stupid. but yeah, your title. LOl, love you too mei ;D VSM & VSJ (: haha, nvm lah, spam better!

kah hwee: yeah lor, auntie so good lah, won't trick me de.

tim: yo kor, congrats (: you've earned it lah, you worked so hard for the comps.

jiansheng: haha, yeah hor, you so good, sure won't trick me lah! (lol, you probably forgot it was april fools ;x) okay, i will i will. competition coming soon lah, hope i can jia you! ai yah yeah lor, my hand too small liao, cannot even stretch accross the discus lor, pathetic lah! ._. kay lah will eat more de, you never see me eat a lot before hor, when you see it you will get a shock i'm sure ;D hahaha.

kah hwee: okay thanks auntie (: wonder how yours is going now, i'm praying for you lah. liek you asked! ._. lol.

xinny yiu: ahhah, thanks thanks (: yeah the rubber thingy is so cute! haha, way better than the stupid discus! okay, next running, here we come! ;D xinny yiu and nat (: yes must win sean lah! and guodong! ;x lol.
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i feel sorry for her.
he disappointed her.
he broke her heart into two.
she wants to kill him,
but nonetheless,
she just lets it go.
i wonder what he'll do next,
will he go for the other one?
or will he realise that she was the one,
by that time,
it would already be too late.
how could he?
they only lasted so long,
in my mind,
they had a future ahead of them,
and he stupidly ended it.
haix. he really deserves a slap.
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song! ;D

you're not sorry - taylor swift

all this time i was wasting,
hoping you would come around,
i've been giving out chances every time,
and all you do is let me down.

and its taking me this long,
baby but i figured you out,
and you're thinking we'll be fine again,
but not this time around.

you don't have to call anymore,
i won't pick up the phone,
this is the last straw,
don't want to hurt anymore.

you can tell me that you're sorry,
but i don't believe you baby,
like i did before,
you're not sorry, no.

looking so innocent,
i might believe you if i didn't know,
could have loved you all my life,
if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold.

and you got your share of singers,
and i'm tired of being last to know.
and now you're asking me to listen,
cause its worked each time before.

but you don't have to call anymore,
i won't pick up the phone,
this is the last straw,
don't want to hurt anymore.

you can tell me that you're sorry,
but i don't believe you baby,
like i did before,
you're not sorry, no.
you're not sorry, no.

you had me falling for you honey,
and it never would have gone away, no.
you used to shine so bright,
but i watched all of it fade.

so you don't have to call anymore,
i won't pick up the phone,
this is the last straw,
there's nothing left to beg for.

and you could tell me that you're sorry,
but i don't believe you baby,
like i did before,
you're not sorry, no, oh.
you're not sorry,no, oh.
no, no, whoa no.
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okay,
i'm gonna go now.
nothing much to do anyway.
heh, okay bye.
-natalieang wants to eat yogurt! ;O LOL.

tired! ._.
today had np,
full-u all the way mann!
cause had armdrill,
then after that straight away combined UG parade,
followed by footdrill and flag lowering ceremony.
so in the end no pt,
but spent too long in the sun,
as a result,
had a splitting headache,
and felt like fainting when we went to chnage.
lucky those only minor,
i still survived.
heh, i wonder how the sec1s going to cope next time leh.
they haven't experienced all these stuff.
they will soon bah i think.
hope they survive.
like me ;x even tho i'm like,
barely coping, just slightly.
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sian,
coursework again.
this thing is so irritating lahh.
doing it now.
siann.
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did discus during pe,
dammit lah,
my hand too small,
can't even grip the discus ._.
sian diao right? ;O
lucky no running!
hahaha.
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okay bye.
sleep time.
-natalieang is aching all over now! o.o

hello hello.
its april fools day.
and can i just say i am so dumb lah.
early in the morning VSM come trick me.
say she not coming to school cause sick,
then i go believe her,
say all those, take care all those stuff,
then later she come tell me is joking de.
._.""" sian diaos.
i'm so stupid.
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HAHA,
i love helping out mrs goh,
she's so damn funny,
and its fun to see who wins the race up close,
my job is see number 1 (:
awesome-ness ;D
altho in the hot sun,
its worth it,
tmr thats what i'll be doing,
rock on psl (:
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tag replies! (whoo theres alot)
xinny yiu: HAHA, sean runs damn funny man, his legs barely leave the ground! LOL, damn cute lah he, altho a bit annoying sometimes >.< okay run for 2.4 (: yay, i have a running partner le ;D thanks so much xinny yiu, ily!

iman: yeah lah yeah lah, you funny leh you, also never link me, then then never leave your new blog address, is i go find de. ROFL!

laoguo: thanks (: haha, i love it too. nice! oh, yeah, guodong talks like a bullet train lah, fast! thanks for tagging laoguo, my going-to-malaysia-partner! :D

tim: haha, i'm fine now (: oh, good luck! LOL, it was yesterday ._. sorry i didn't answer your call! >.< paiseh paiseh.

jiansheng: yeah, the wait, it will be over soon. i hope. anyway thanks, i guess so ba, even though i was forced o.o HAHA, and thanks, i really love the blogskin, you take care too. always headache de ;P

bernice: hah, i know mine won't be often. HAHA, i guess i jut didn't expect, but its okay, thanks, i get stitches too, i know how to solve it! exhale when your right leg lands on the ground, it really works! haha. i read about it online ._. yeah lor, mr yong try to torture me lah, but i didn't explain properly too i guess, he misunderstood lah, lol. LOL, you think about wedding very fast leh, you always think ahead, tell me all these like 10 years later cause i don't think i'll remember! LOL, i think when i play speed i get kinda agressive! i learn from my sister lah, she play like siao de. no, you're not allowed to quit ;P haha nah, your picture will be fab (: primary school one i think? heh okay bye, i'm off to flood you! (:

jiansheng: LOL, okay okay i will! thanks, you too, you post also okay.

kah hwee: HAHA, you too, altho you never trick me, happy april fools anyway ;D
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wah mdm nora never come,
how to learn one chapter every week,
if she never come for two periods,
which only leaves two periods for a whole chapter!
._. die.
lucky before assembly tmr is english,
if not i miss out liao.
ahh, shan't tell you.
bleh ;p
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heh, graphs suck! ):
do until pek chek lah.
careless careless careless.
:/ sian lahhhh.
will work hard!
tests next week!
jiayouuuuuu!
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okay okay i'm tired.
bye people.
i'm off to sleep.
-natalieang is out like a light.
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