ChangYiLuän says:
*why u in china? :(
*i want hug u when i cry de leh :(

aiyooo.
hear this i very sad leh,
i also want to be there.
but i cant.
i wont enjoy it anymore.
because i could be doing something so meaningful.
haix.
i will try my best people!
hope the sec4 '09 will come for NP chalet this year!


ehh. projet firefly is dull kay! );
boring! yawwwwwwwwwn.

kay byee.
that is all.
-natalieang is watching boys over flowers tonight :D

hello peopleeee.
went to old ford factory and kranji war memorial today.
quite nice,
learning 'bout the past.
and kinda sad too.


PICTURES :D


^ old ford! (:



^ lim bo seng's diary ;O



^ exact room where the british surrendered to the japs.
see the clock, 6.20? its the time the surrender document,
was signed.



^ if you thought music is tough now,
you havent seen enough.



^ MONEY :D

okay,
competitions are damn scary man.
my first time i think?
(besides the jigsaw thingy thing)
my heart was pounding so much man.
but in the end,
we won silver :D
i was so happy,
we were high-fiving everywhere.
oh,
and daryl's gonna treat us (:
yay.
hahaha.
i didn't go to school yesterday.
cause of the competition.
but we waited for like 6 almost 7 hours,
just for that moment.
well, i am proud of us.
and very happy (:
shall upload pictures next timee.
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tag repliess.
(the current ones, i cant reply the old ones cause well, theres too many)

corrina: okayye, thank youuuuu ;D

aneka: you do that okay sweetie (: if you're ever angry or stressed, you can rant to me in the morning during flag raising. HEHE.

shiying: oki doki. shall get to it right awayyy.

lynette: HI ^^ <3

bernice: HAHA, that vid is damn nice man. ohh, i see. math is still my best subject, its just that more people are pro-er in math than me (like aneka <3), yeah, and apparently i am first for english in my class o.o so yeah ._. ahha. hehe, maybe you'll get a chance to come here one day. i shall give you a tour (:

shimin: SHIMIN (L) :D

passerby: ._. okay, thank you. hmm. mine telling me your name? haha.

SAM: aww, sorry husband. i shall link you right awayyy. link me too okay? hehee.

aneka: it was so awesome (: thanks for asking. awww, i missed you too. really felt like talking and ranting to you. shall talk more soon, MONDAY awaits :D whoo. <3333
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okay. i'm done.
and i'm a bit disappointed today.
but i hope it will change.
buh-byes people.
have fun with your lifes,
and please enlighten me.
i feel as boring and emotion-less as a peice of wood.
-natalieang is sad that she can't go.

^the sky is grey, but that flower still gives me hope.


^ beautiful chung cheng ;D



^ orange car ;O cool seh ^^

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hello all (:
thanks to:
(this is gonna be loonnnggg! ._.)
- all the volleyballers for that nice birthday song, and a great lunch!
- lishan, shimin, aneka, wenwen & meixin for saying happy birthday to me after exam.
- sarah, joanna, my tuition teacher (><) and jian sheng for the gifts.
- emily jie, jia zhi, alethea, mathilda, bernice, charmaine, auntie, shi nan, xinting & vivian for the smses ;D
- yiluan, jasmine, and auntie again for the msn wishes (:
- jacky, eeching, jia xian, sean & yuemin for the facebook wall comments!
- xinting, meixin, auntie(again again! ._.), yiluan & ziyue for the tags :D

! overall. thanks to you all. you guys rock, ILY TOO <33
i feel blessed to have you all.
even though today was not my happiest day,
its still my birthday,
and well, i just have to accept it.
okay bye.
going out with charm and ber tmr.
awesome.
-natalieang is grateful to all who have wished her well.

aww man.
history was okay,
i hope i can pass man ><
so i went home,and thanks to:
valerie, xinting & vivian ;D
for walking me to the bus stop,
even though you guys could just take mrt home.
you guys rock ^^
<333!
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oh shit.
tmr is science! ><
i heard that it was tough!
stupid mr neo.
set so hard!
i can't believe it man.its just tmr!! D:
i hope i can do it.
come on science used to be my second best subject!
(maths is my first).
PLEASE! save me lah.
kay jiayou people,shall end with these:
LOL, pictures! ;O




^ group photo (: me + volleyballers ;D



^ my painting ;D (happy now kor? hahah xD)


^ random pic of the sky! it was gonna rain o.o


^ my fried rice ;D nice right? i take orders.
call me bah, i can make for you! ;P
okay paiseh i know very lame ._.
oh, and btw,
the drink is mango+orangejuice+banana (:


^ !orange ;O

friendship is really something.
filled with laughter and fun.
but ours, it felt like you were having fun,
while i was suffering.
i hate to say it,
but you threw your tantrums at me,
without a single sorry.
and, actually i don't really mind,
but you did it over and over,
and you never want to talk it over with me,
like you didn't want me to bother.
it hurt me.
then after that,
i would come to you all excited,
wanting to tell you something,
and then, you said you already knew,
in a 'duh' way,
but it occured to me, "why didn't you tell me?"
it was like you wanted to keep it from me.
and then the issue of your 'other friends',
i felt like i had to ask to be included,
and like all the jokes you all shared,
i didn't understand,
this made me yearn to get away,
as i felt that i wasn't wanted.
and, since i felt like everytime i was near you,
our friendship seemed to fade away,
i had to retreat,
to stop my wound from hurting.
and then i just felt that,
you were hurting me,
every word of criticism,
every time you said you were with 'them',
it hurt me so deeply.
its like you have a whole other world,
a world, sad to say, without me.
i trusted you,
and told you everything,
but i felt liek you always kept secrets from me.
i longed for a solution,
so i tried to stay with other friends for awhile,
hoping that i would find a solution,
but i didn't, instead,
i found that being with my other friends brings me joy.
but now i still feel empty,
there's so much i feel like telling you,
but i can't.
the hurt, will all come back again.
i admit, i'm not completely the same person,
but i am trying, to be an all-the-more better person.
bernice knows, in primary 5,
i had a really rotten attitude,
but after being hurt before and ganged up against by all my friends,
i learnt my lesson,
and told myself, to change.
to be a better person.
luckily, i still had some friends to rely on,
tseyen, zhixian.
they really cheered me up.
and mingen, helped me when i had problems with my math teacher.
these people,
are my lifesavers.
anyway, i believe i have changed.
for the better, i believe.
even though i am still struggling hard with my studies,
i am determined to do well.
this gives me a goal in life.
but what about friendship,
i find that,
with my other friends,
there is laughter and fun,
without any hurt.
and they accept me for who i am.
and are so kind to me.
its like i am actually wanted, after all.
this perfect circle of mine,
makes me wonder if we could be like that,
i am willing to try, even if the hurt is there.
but i don't know about you.
maybe, if its really meant that way,
our friendship, i hate to say it,
is over.
please god.
save me.
tell me what i should do.
hey peeps.
chnaged my braces colour to orange ;D
and wore a mask inside the medical centre ._.
LOL.
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yesteday xinting gave me a note.
so damn funny.
HAHA.
she's so cute.
ily flower (: i am your fan too ;D
you rock girl ^^ !!!
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buh-bye.
mugging awaits.

thanks for the encouragements.
but alas, i will never be the same since.
well, y'know.
heh, but i'm much more happy (:
thanks to all you guys who tagged and smsed and chatted,
and talked to me:
-yiuxinting! (:
-changyiluan! (:
-bernice BESTIE! :D <33333
-eujiansheng! :D <3333 forever
-iman! (:
-kahhweeauntie! (:
-daryl! (:
-timothy kor! (:
-seanlim! (:
-emily jie! (:
-boksiongsir! (:

!hope i didn't miss out on anyone. well thanks so much.
all of you are just so nice and caring. i really appreciate it.
and thanks for the advice too (:
i promise i shall reply all the tags after exams.

anyway, i wanna post lyrics ;D hahaha.
back to my old usual self i guess.
:
I'd Lie -
by taylor swift
i don't think that passenger's seat,
has ever looked this good to me.
he tells me about his night,
and i count the colours in his eyes.

he'll never fall in love he swears,
as he runs his fingers through his hair.
i'm laughing cause i hope he's wrong.
and i don't think it ever have crossed his mind,
he tells a joke i fake a smile,
but i know all his favourite songs.
and i could tell you,
his favourite colour's green,
he loves to argue, born on the seventeenth,
his sister's beautiful,
he has his father's eyes,
if you ask me if i love him,
i'd lie.

he looks around the room,
innocent he overlooks the truth,
shouldn't a light go on,
doesn't he know i've had him memorised for so long,
he sees everything black and white,
and never let nobody see hm cry,
and i don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine,
i could tell you,
his favouite colour's green,
he loves to argue, born on the seventeenth,
his sister's beautiful,
he has his father's eyes,
if you ask me if i love him,
i'd lie.

he sits there then walks away,
my god if i could only say,
i'm holding every breath for you

he'd never tell you,
but he can play guitar,
i think he can see through, everything but my heart.
first thought when i wake up,
is my god he's beautiful,
so i put on my makeup,
and pray for a miracle.

yes i could tell you,
his favourite colour's green,
he loves to argue, oh and it kills me,
his sister's beautiful,
he has his father's eyes,
if you ask me if i love him,
you ask me if i love him,
i'd lie.
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its so nice don't cha think.
the bridge is nice,
where it goes 'i'm holding every breath for you'
and the part thats 'he'd never tell you',
all the way until 'miracle'
its so beautiful, the song and the lyrics,
awesome.
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i want an iTouch!
ugh, daryl makes me jealous ):
and my tuition friend ashley too.
an itouch is so cool. i want one! D;
but it costs like 300 bucks i think,
no moneyye man. sad.
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stressed.
exams are squeezing every ounce of effort outta me,
and also the taekwondo competition,
sometimes i feel like dropping out,
because seriously, i kinda suck at the pattern,
and i'm not making much improvements,
my teammates are all moving ahead of me,
i have no motivation, and i'm so stressed by exams.
but i can't bah, my emily jie would hae a tough time if that happened.
so yup, better not, she shall be my motivation then (:

BERNICE IS SUCH A SWEETHEART! :D
the evidence is there! she tags me,
she chats with me when she feels like talking,
she is so nice, i love her. and gosh, i miss her so much,
i haven't seen her in like, hmm, a few months? ;O
its still a long time. i can't wait to see her again! (:
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okay i wanna go now. nothing much to say.
okay buh-bye,
natalieang wants a iTouch ;O it will never be the same.
i think i said that already.
just like that song,
you're thinking it'll be fine again,
but not this time around.
haix, you are sooo.
aiyuh, i dunno how to say.
i can't really believe it,
and i still dunno what to do,
the hurt is still there,
a deep stab wound etched in my heart,
for it to heal,
even 'forever' couldn't measure it.
haix, what to do? what to do?
and i am seriously so frustrated.
haix. when is this going to end?
i hate it.