freak you.
sian.
for those of you know whats going on,
thanks for all the encouragement.
i'm so stressed. but i'll try and handle.
can't believe i _____ today.
it seems a long time since i did that,
and the last time was also because of stress.
whats wrong with me.
other people can handle it,
but why can't i.
things have no turned out well these days,
and i'm trying my best to salvage whats left of my life,
but why is it i just can't. everytime i feel cheered up,
something will happen to make me stressed and angry and sad,
and irritated, and sian again.
haix, i'm just so useless you know.
useless. seriously.
i'm the most useless person ever.
don't pity me please,
and don't think i'm just a bitch can.
i'm so sorry people,
i have to say it, I'M USELESS.
such a useless stupid person like me shouldn't even exist lor.
sian, its happening again. i'm ______ again.
wth. haix.
these few days made me really realise what a useless person i am,
wu yao ke jiu.
and all the trust was gone,
just like the blowing of dust off an old book,
one blow, andits gone.
now i know better.
and i know i can't trust people too easily,
because, the fact is,
some people will betray that trust,
and hurt you in ways you never would have thought possible.
thats what happened.
it will happen to everyone i'm sure,
but being the useless person i am,
i couldn't handle it.
just _____ it out,
but thanks for all the concern,
but just don't get your hopes up on me,
its not worth it.
special thanks to jie, and boksiong sir,
your advice was awesome,
and it cheered me up,
even a useless person can appreciate the advice given.
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won't be replying tags today.
no mood lah.
another time bah.
but don't bother tagging this useless person here.
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going to be away for a long long long time.
due to exams.
so yeah,
this useless idiot needs to buck up,
so she doesn't dissapoint herself,
and everyone else.
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happy birthday IMAN.
may you be happy forever,
and jia you for O lvl kay.
!
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congrats to everyone who got GOLDS,
and GOLD WITH HONOURS.
jiayou people,
at least you aren't as useless as me kay.
so must jiayou,
cause unlike me,
you can do it!
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okay.
that is all.
my mood has been totally wrecked,
all because of the past few days,
and stress.
and .... ,
so yeah, bye. i'm going off le.
-natalieang, haix, useless thing. (whats more, didn't get into GOH cause too short -.-)

you, why?
i trusted you.
but why.
things will never
be the same,
the hurt is done.
its done, so whatever happens,
i'll still remember what happened.
nothing will undo it.
i wish it would return,
but now i realise, it just can't.
you're not the same,
i'm not the same.
friends? haix, i don't even think its possible.
i can't do it again. let myself get hurt by trusting you,
because i only know,
i'll be more hurt.
just forget it then.
you already have them.
you don't need me.
you'll survive. i don't thunk i can pull myself to,
trust you again anyway.
so just go on,
go with them, i'll be fine,
i guess. i always knew that some friendships can't last.
but never in my life did i think that you,
would be the one person to make me realise that,
well its fine, i guess its not your fault.
its mine.
haix, you useless idiotic natalie, wake up lah.